Thursday, May 21, 2009
Disappointment.
my results totally let me down.
maybe it's the sudden increase in competition in 3JT. 2BN never really posed me much challenge, except for certain individuals.
but nontheless. i feel very dejected.
everyone seemed to get higher than me.
with every result i get back, i can just feel my level class position slide down further and further. and trust me, it's not very far from hitting rock bottom.
i don't think i even gotten an A1. everything is like, A2, B3 and a couple of B4s. and the most i will get for English will be a B3, i should think.
what happened? i don't know
. i really don't know.
it's so hard to express my feelings without letting my parents worried.
it's really annoying and know i've just realised: why do i have to suffer just to keep the others happy?
it's really ironic.
so ironic i just wanna cry sometimes..
freedom is so hard to achieve.
i only asked for a tiny bit.
just a tiny bit.
i'm not demanding much, am i?
i don't think so.
so why is it so hard??
