Saturday, May 30, 2009
i'm feeling much angrier these few day. i don't know why, this feeling just comes naturally to me when something doesn't go my way. my mum says that i'm getting more and more withdrawn and i'm not talking to her like i always do previously. well, i don't really know how to answer to that but, i'm really trying my best to reach out to people.
my tuition teacher is going away to Japan for a job attachment.
my only reply to this? WHAT THE FISH. this is definately gonna affect my results somehow, no matter what others say. if you really know me, i don't really, how should i say this. i dont' really open my self out and talk to people that i've met for only a short period of time. zzz guess i've gotta do the same old thing: intro, stone, listen, nod and keep all my feelings to myself because it's really hard for me to express it to new people.
people in my class, i really need your help. for clarification of theories, formulaes, etc. yeah.
i'm feeling a bit emo today, and the fact that my besties, eg: Germaine, Kenneth, Venessa etc are not online doesn't do much to improve my mood. when i voice out my opinions about something at home, my parents will usually brush it off with another reply of their own, probably claiming something that i personally feel is not true. and when i reinforce my opinion with another damn point, they go "don't talk back". hey. if
you have the chance to have your way and even have your feelings be expressed and emphasised here,
why can't i? just because i'm the youngest member of this family that can actually produce a proper and logical argument doesn't mean anything, ok.
well. i finally spent some cash on my own and bought a pencil case from The Wallet Shop. this sounds a bit ironic, don't ya think? although it was really cheap. $11.90. the most expensive stuff in the house that belongs to me are:
1. laptop
2. PSP
3. my books
and for the record, if you total up the price of ALL my books, it can easily be higher than the combined cost of the laptop and PSP. yeah, and the number of books are still increasing. just today i bought 2 new books (the last 2 books of the Twilight series) and *ahem* i doubt i have any space in my bookshelf to contain them. i'll probably stack them on top, if the top of the bookshelf isn't already filled with more books and a whole lot of stationery (mine and Dad's). damn. time to save up for a new bookshelf. the next dilemna: a space to fit in a bookshelf.
my Dad's thinking of moving house. and i go: I DON'T WANNA FREAKING MOVE ANYWHERE. i think the main point is that the house is bigger and that my room would be bigger?? maybe i could use the space. maybe. maybe not. but more to the 'maybe not' side.
waiting for K, G, Venessa to come online.
bye.
